REMEMBER:
1. I’m not a genius. I just like books.
2. I can be a little off-task at times.
3. I’m not exactly topical.
4. I never claimed to have good taste.
Okay, if I can't maintain order in my freaking life I'm not sure how I expected to be able to blog with some kind of pattern or regularity. I mean, shit, I'm the guy who's never been successfully medicated for his ADD, not because the drugs didn't work but because I couldn't remember to take them in the first place. So here's the deal: I'll blog when I can and you'll like it.
In all fairness it's been a hectic month. I spent ten days of it out of town and I'd like to tell you about that before I get down to the bookishness. Is that okay?
Well, I know you probably don't care, but while I was out of town I lived up to my highest musical aspiration. Since I can't sing, or play any instruments, not even the drums, that can mean only one thing. You guessed it: I was a roadie. I went on tour with a local band called the Antique Curtains and it was probably (no shit) as much fun as I've ever had. If that sounds lame, well, maybe it is, but I don't care. It's the fucking truth.
We swung northeast from Memphis, playing in Asheville, Chapel Hill, Baltimore, Philadelphia and NYC. With the exception of Asheville I'd never been to any of these places before. I loved New York, and I wanted New York to love me, but the Gods intervened. As soon as I entered the city it seemed like what little coolness I can lay claim to changed its name and moved to France. I tripped, I spilled drinks on myself, I got caught in subway doors and turnstiles. In short, if it was uncool, if it was clumsy, if it was painfully bumpkinish, I did it.
Ah well, that's what I get for trying to impress people. To my credit I developed a whole new profession while on the tour; I'm calling it Rock n' Roll Road Sherpa. It all came about as a result of something I saw in Gigantic (a documentary on They Might Be Giants, it's good, check it out) and it was this: at one point John Linnell talks about the way in which, after they've been on the road for a while, he begins to resent the way John Flansberg breathes. That scared the hell out of me.
Now, it really shouldn't have, the Curtains are about the nicest freaking human beings you ever met in your life. But this was, after all, my vacation, and I didn't want any Bad Times. I wasn't going to risk it (I like breathing, you see, and do it often). I decided the best way to defeat any potential on-tour bad feelings was to ensure that everything went as smoothly as was humanly possible. To bring this about I had to transcend mere manager-dom, I had to become the Road Sherpa. A roadie, you see, is a drunk guy in a sleeveless teeshirt who moves amps from one place to another, a manager (at least at the Curtains-scale) is usually more or less the same but has sleeves and a map and might think he's too good to move amps. The Road Sherpa, however, is a guy with sleeves and only a mild buzz on, who has cough drops, mapquest printouts, TWO flashlights, internet access, a pen and paper (just in case anyone ever says "Britton, could you take a note?") earplugs, change for the meter, TP, Aleve, and a camera always at the ready. I was the all-purpose, go-to, swiss army human and it felt good. The Sherpa moves amps as well.
We all had a fucking awesome time, but I won't go into it. This isn't a music blog, after all. I want to talk about Walker Percy's The Moviegoer, to the best of my feeble ability.
I would really like to tell you what The Moviegoer was about but I'm afraid I can't really say. This is a problem I frequently have after reading one of the Great Literary Novels; a feeling that I failed to interact with the book at its deepest level of meaning.
The Brothers Karamazov was the first, and still the ultimate, book to cause that feeling inside me. I've tried, and failed, to read this book probably five times. It's my Everest. Maybe you know the feeling that causes me to always throw up my hands in despair: it comes on as you're reading, and enjoying, a novel. You can be moved by its beauty, and challenged by its ideas. You can love its characters like family. But eventually you become vaguely aware of all the ideas that are flying right over your head, and all the currents of meaning that flow beneath the surface, undeniably there but beyond your reach, and you understand that these ideas, the ones you're failing to grasp, are what make the book what it is. You understand that really all you're grasping is the plot, and with a book like Karamazov that's kind of like going to the beach and doing no more than standing around in water wings, letting the surf wet your feet. And you give up, pretty disgusted with yourself for being such a clod.
Well The Moviegoer held a similar struggle for me. It follows some events in the life of Binx Bolling, a seller of mutual funds, an attender of movies, a perpetually distracted observer of life and also, ESPECIALLY, of his own feelings. He constantly dissects his social interactions, and the random march of his own thoughts. He theorizes on where "malaise" comes from, and adopts strategies for dealing with it; a mild car wreck, for instance, proves a useful means of shooing off malaise.
He's weird.
Towards the beginning of the novel, he declares himself to be on a search for...well, I never was quite clear on that point. He refers to this Search throughout the whole rest of the novel. He Searches as he chases his secretary, as he conducts his business, as he visits his family members, as he reflects and reflects and reflects and REFLECTS on the events of his life.
In the end, this book was about an oddball pondering his own oddness, and I felt rather shut out of the whole thing. I managed to find some liking for Binx, and I took some interest in the concrete actions he took in his life, such as when he defies his overbearing matriarch of an aunt, and runs off with his step-cousin Kate. She's a maladjusted weirdo no less than Binx, and I was glad they found each other. But their constant introspection was, I thought, fairly ho-hum.
With the The Moviegoer I suspect that you either get it or you don't. I didn't. This is probably my failing more than Walker Percy's. If you're like me, and you don't have the ability to connect with Binx's personal philosophy, and statements like "How could I deal with ten thousand people's personal rays" leave you going "hmm?", here's what you'll carry away from a reading of this novel: a little good dialogue, some moments of real pathos (such as Binx's beautiful connection with his crippled half-brother), and a bunch of really good descriptions of New Orleans in its glory days.
Also (and this is a moment in which I know full well I'm leaving myself wide open to a devastating broadside from anyone who loves this book, and who might have given it a more careful reading than I did) who the fuck is Rory? About two thirds of the way into the book, Binx (who has been narrating in a fairly straightforward first person voice) suddenly starts talking to this guy named Rory. "I tell you what, Rory, if I hadn't seen it with my own eyes I wouldn't have believed it", stuff like that. What? Calling all nerds, someone make this make sense to me.
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7 comments:
thank god for a new post. sounds like the road sherpa-ing went well. i hope you'll give new york another chance, even if you wait a few years until you have a free place to crash and a cousin who can lead you to the best booze and the finest musical samplings.
and as for the book...i imagine if i'd read it, my response would still be a little something like this:
what the fuck.
oh my gawd, I found your blog and am not sure who it happened...the world is rotating backward on its axis....
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The Brothers Karamazov does suck. The Moviegoer is spectacular. Rory is Rory Calhoun, an actor from that time. Binx thinks to him as a colleague when it comes to the practice of making love to a woman. The point of the book, in a sentence, is that no matter how noble an undertaking the search may be, in the end it is fruitless because we are who we are and that is that. Kate put it this way, "It doesn't matter who you are, as long as you know who you are." Binx's search is fraudulent, he admits as much when he thinks 'What a shock, on and on it goes.' On and On it goes......
Ha - I enjoyed your synopsis. I just finished the book a few moments ago and almost asked the same question aloud to myelf... who the f*ck is Rory! Well one of the other comment-ers has at least led me in the right direction.
P.S. Your description of reading books but failing to understand it all was dead-on. I enjoyed reading novels for english class in college so much better than on my own because we would discuss it, and in the discussion a lot came out. If you really want to know what the hell is going on, try Ulysses...
Awesome. I just finished the moviegoer, wondered "Who the fuck is Rory?", googled "moviegoer rory" and found this -- an excellent blog post that perfectly articulates the frustration lots of readers feel with books like the moviegoer, plus a bunch of smart comments that among other things, tell me exactly who the fuck Rory is.
Two things. First, as regards those frustrations. My personal feeling is that if you're moved by a book's beauty, challenged by its ideas, and love its characters like family, then those vague ungraspable ideas have done their work. The fact that you can't put those ideas into words doesn't mean you should put the book down. If anything, it means you should come back to it in future years. But even if you're never able to articulate them, who cares? I don't know much about music theory, but the fact that I can't say why certain tunes work for me doesn't matter. With books, unlike music, we can talk about what makes them work by using non-esoteric language. But ultimately, books and music are not about the things we say about them, they are about themselves. Or something.
Second, as regards the moviegoer and Demsy's comment. I think you probably know this book a lot better than I do, but for what it's worth, my take was different. Jack and Kate have both had something traumatic happen to them -- he was wounded in the Korean War, she was in a car accident in which her fiancee was killed. This knocks them out of the everyday-ness that most people spend most of their time soaking in. It makes them infused with wonder, but also prone to malaise and alienated from the people around them. For them, being relentlessly content with their lives like Uncle Jules isn't really possible. They almost have to actively undertake some kind of search - for God, authenticity, whatever. Here, the search appears to have been futile. They now seem to cling to everyday-ness more than most, to the point where Kate needs Jack to constantly remind her of the everyday things she's supposed to be doing. But I'm not sure I'd say the search was fraudulent, simply because I'm not sure they had any choice in attempting it.
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